Hey, I'm new to this board but hope to hang out more! Here's my spill: I'm 31 years old, have had weight issues my whole.darn.life. and I'm so tired of it. In 1999 I lost 85 pounds in 90 days by eating 320 calories a day, gained it back immediately after getting to my goal weight of 170.
I got up to 309.8, December of 2007 I started Weight Watchers and lost 155 pounds in a year and a half, got to my goal weight of 160, never felt better. I did it much healthier this time though, while I never learned to eat healthy foods, I did eat enough, even if it wasn't very healthy food. I kept the weight off for years and even worked for Weight Watchers.
In June 2011 we found out that we had a possibility to adopt a baby (we weren't looking into adoption at the time, totally random), my H was joining the police academy, and we were moving... all at the same time! I was so stressed and started eating to deal, and started gaining weight... and didn't stop. I was so stressed and it really did seem to help handle it, then Hadley was born and gosh I was just so happy! And I started staying at home, and that was another huge challenge, I ate all.day.long. Needless to say I gained most of my weight back... I got up to 256.6 and am currently at 240.
I'm finally trying to tackle my food issues, I have severe food aversions... I have issues. I'm going to see a counselor in January, very excited about it! I want to learn to love food, even the green stuff. I want to learn to love my body and it's fat scars and extra skin, I want to get to the root of why I turn to food always.
AND, I want to learn to love to exercise. Before when I was closer to my goal weight (mainly under 200 pounds) I somewhat enjoyed exercise, but it had to be something that made me think I was going to die. I did the couch to 5k as much as I could, the reason I almost enjoyed it was because I was so focused on not dying the time passed. I also did p90x and enjoyed it, well almost enjoyed it.
Now I'm at 240, and I want to exercise but I'm so out of shape, it's bad! I don't have stamina to stand for long, I mean I have a 1 year old so I'm up and about all day, but if I'm just standing I'm constantly thinking about wanting to sit down again. I do know that in the past when I did exercise I instantly had more stamina.
Does anyone have any suggestions for things to do that might be challenging so I'll actually do it while not being so strenuous... because well, I'm big. If you read all of this, then you my dear just won the internet. ) I really really want this, I deserve this, I want to earn this.