DH and I have been married 1.5 years and have a beautiful DD. His b'day was this month and I feel like things are going badly not just because we're financially challenged but also because when we fight, it's a little worse every time. We both say things we don't mean (I hope), but I can't help feeling like we are terribly disconnected. I don't know who to talk to about it. I have no friends to speak of, and I don't feel like I can talk to my or his family about it. This time around, he refuses to talk to me (even in front of his family, in town from out of state to celebrate his birthday). I've sincerely apologized, but now I feel like that was a waste of time since he is clearly not willing to work it out. Sometimes it takes a couple of days for him to come around, but he hasn't willingly spoken to me in a week now and it's been much longer since he's told me he loves me.
Forget about sex, too, because even though I've lost the baby weight he still doesn't want me. I tried playing some sexy music, lighting some candles, and giving him a show tonight, but he just told me to get lost and not touch him.
We're not talking about the "D" word, that's not even on the table. I just need some encouragement. I'm tired of missing the closeness we once had. Like I said, if I had anyone to talk to about it I wouldn't be writing this, but I don't and he won't listen.