I do have another account and have been on the boards a lot in the past, but since this topic is a rather delicate one I decided to create a new one.
First, I know that most of the ladies here wouldn't do this, but I feel the need to put it out there. I would like serious responses and no rude or inappropriate comments.
My DH and I have dealt with E.D. off and on since we have been together. I would like to note that we are fairly young for this, I'm 29 and he's 28 and have been together for a little over 6 years. I have been supportive from the start because I know it has nothing to do with me or specifically with him, it's more of a physical problem that needs to be addressed. He has just started seeing a doctor about it, which I'm really proud of him. He's still undergoing certain tests to make sure that his E.D. isn't caused by an underlying health condition.
Now that brings me to my dilemma. We both have decided that we want to have kids and have discussed TTC. Our original thought was that we were going to start this past fall, however, most attempts to make love ended in not being able to do so. We talked about it and decided that we needed to take that pressure off while he's working this out. I know there is no right time when things happen, but I find myself becoming very sensitive to others announcing their pregnancies. I'm happy for my friends, but am also a little jealous. I haven't really spoken much to my DH about these feelings because I don't want to hurt him anymore then I know he already has been with dealing with his E.D. It's especially been hard this past week for me. 3 of my friends announced pregnancies over Christmas and this is also my time to try. Even though we aren't actively TTC we have left it at if we time it right great if not no big deal. I haven't been sharing with him the best times anymore so he doesn't feel pressured, but this was my week and every time we have tried this week it has ended in failure.
This has become longer then I had anticipated. I know there is no real question here, mostly me just expressing my emotions while trying to be supportive. I never realized how much it would start to weigh on me and part of me feels guilty for wanting to have a baby right now. Thank you for letting me tell you though, because I have not shared this with anyone.