Sorry, nothing sexy or exciting, just needed to vent.
DH doesn't get it. Ever since his brother died he's kind of numb to death-related stuff.
A guy I grew up with died this week. Car accident, totally unexpected. We weren't extremely close, but when you grow up in a small town, and you've known someone as long as you can remember, its hard not to feel an attachment. He and I have brothers the same age, he and I were the same age, we both knew we wanted to go to college (and did), we both worked at the same fast food place in high school, we had the same teachers/homerooms growing up, our families knew each other.. etc.
Its all just been so overwhelming. I feel funny because its not like I will "miss" him, as he was not part of my day-to-day life, but I'm so so sad he's gone. I went to the wake with my mom and dad, and we talked to his family, and I just lost it crying. I didn't want to appear disrespectful because we weren't close, but I was just SO sad. I'm still really sad about this, and I just can't figure out why. Its frustrating not understanding why I'm so sad. I still haven't been able to look at his facebook page since I heard.
Sorry, weird I know. I've lost friends before...a close friend in high school and an ex-boyfriend commited suicide. A neighbor of mind also commited suicide a little over a year ago. This is just so hard and saddening and I can't figure out why.