This is just a vent because I have no one else to talk about it. Sorry. Here it is...
My mother and I, since I turned 15 years old have been in a real weird relationship, she's one of those extremely dramatic and think the world spins around her, and everything and everyone is against her. She works with crafting, my dad always gave everything to her and she never had big issues in life to turn her into such a negative person. Well, our issues started at that time, with little things, different opinions and her temper.
The thing is, after dating a real bad person (which I didn't know til after 1 year dating, he turned my life into a nightmare after that, long story), my mother's sister and her sons made up a big lie about me and spread this to the rest of my family. At the time, I was having a hell of time, trying to get my life together after that ex and trying to move forward with my life, my own mother started to spread this gossip behind my back, therefore the rest of my ''family'' were all against me. No matter what I said or proved that this gossip was a lie, they wouldn't believe. This was 3 years ago, and has a while I found out my mother helped with that, I'm still living with my parents until I marry my amazing fianc?, but I never really forgot what she did.
She, now is always bitching at me, blaming myself for her sh!tty life and how a bad daughter I am for not ''helping'' them with money very often (note: when I was in a better financial situation I'd help my parents as much as I could, like gave 90% of the money to buy their new car, now I'm not currently working so, go figure). I always tried to help as much as I could, and many times I'd always hear negative words as a ''payback''. I'm not talking about the money, far from it, I want to help them as long as I can and would never regret about it.
Yesterday, right after waking up I went to the kitchen and hugged and kissed my mom for 2 mins. and ate breakfast, same with dad. Well, 40 mins later she comes to my room and starts yelling at me, saying how ''a piece of sh!t'' I am, and how my in-laws won't stand me and how she wishes my fianc? treats me bad and that my in-laws will make me their slave, because I'll never get anything good in life and she'll see that happen to me. The more I try to ignore it, because I know how she is and always have been, the more it gets to me hearing my mom saying such a thing. This has been a constant, even before meeting my fianc? (that treats my parents like his own parents). I'm just so disappointed with it, so disappointed with mom.. I always believed that family was to be there for you, but yea.. DNA doesn't mean love and respect.
To make it worse to handle, I caught my dad saying the same things to mom and both having fun with it! I was just so shocked, always seen my dad as a hero and now seeing what he thinks about me, it's just so idk... sad. The only person in my life now that gives me support and cheer me up is my fianc?, he always try so hard to give me hope and I'm so thankful for him. I just do not know how to handle this anymore for the next couple months until I can leave and marry. I'm applying for a job next week to take me out of the house a little, but coming back home it's just like hell. I'm sorry for this long post and vent, but I guess I had to just type.. I know many others has worse problems than mine, but dealing with it, its not easy though. What to do and how to ignore all those negatives words surrounding me?... I appreciate if you read it all and any input.