i want to be in love with my "best friend."
i want him to treat me like a princess.
i want respect.
i want appreciation.
i want to not hate him.
i dont want to have to walk on eggshells worrying about if im going to do/say something wrong &hes going to go off on me.
im sick of being lectured about everything i do..i want a boyfriend not a boss.
i want honesty.
i want someone i can talk to. someone i can be me around.
i know what a relationship should be & mine is everything it shouldnt be.
ive never wanted out so badly before..i can't stand him anymore..we have one dd who is 1 & another one on the way. i try so hard to stick around so my daughter has both her parents under one roof, but its not working out. im happier when he's not around. I look foward to him going to work so I don;t have to see him. I want out, but at the same time where am i going to go?! i have family i can stay with but i feel like such a failure- i should be moving fowards not backwards by living with my parents.My daughter deserves to sleep in her crib not her pack & play because her mom &dad cant get along. ughh! I just want to scream. idk what to do anymore. I really think if i leave for a while it might make an impact to his dense brain. im sick of everytime things get rough he runs to talk to the first girl that will give him attention to make himself feel better..thats not ok with me. were 26 & 27 years old its time to grow up. im so happy were not married! and to make matters worse we live off his income (he has a great job) im lucky im able to be a sahm (ive been collecting unemployment just to have some extra money but i dont get much & i have 2 checks left). i'd love to get a job, but whos going to hire someone whos 5 1/2 months prego? decisions decisions decisions.............................................