This morning I had one of *those* moments when I realized it's almost the end of March. My brother Kyle's little girl Maddy was born in March, and I am terrible because I have no idea when her birthday is or even how she's doing. I look at my son (just turned 9 months the day) and it breaks my heart to realize there is so much my brother is missing because he lost all custoday/visitation with her a few months after she was born. Her family wanted nothing to do with him or any of us (I called once when she was pregnant to say congratulations and was told to give them their space). I respected their wishes, but wanted to still send 1st Christmas, 1st Easter cards/presents to let them know I wasn't a bum too and wished the best for Maddy. With mom's cancer and having my own children, I never did it. Now that she's one, I feel like it's too late. Is that stupid? I have never met Maddy or her mother's family, and would probably walk right by them if I saw them on the street, so I don't know why I feel so blue about it.