Hi everyone, I know I have seen several posts about this same issue but I guess I just want to vent and get some feedback...
I am 22 and have been on birth control for 6 years and I really believe it is the cause of my low sex drive. I truly love my FI, I am attracted to him, and once we start having sex I enjoy it. However, I just can't seem to get myself to initiate it. Which is obviously a problem.
My FI brought the subject up last night and we talked about. He basically expressed that he feels if he doesn't try/ask for sex, he won't get it. He doesn't feel like I am attracted to him and he doesn't feel like I want him. I tried to explain that I think it is the birth control and it has nothing to do with him but he didn't really seem to buy that. He wants me to be the one to initiate it and show him that I want it. And I will admit, I haven't been.
We have sex often, usually once a day (sometimes we skip a day). So it's not the quantity it's the quality. I don't know why but sometimes I feel like sex is a hassle. I know that sounds horrible. But we don't use condoms so every time we have sex I end up having to run to the bathroom and I still end up with everything all over my underwear. Therefore if we have sex and then want to go out to the store or mall, I'm worried that I'm gonna have a nice big wet spot on my pants. And because we don't use condoms, sometimes there isn't enough lubrication I usually end up sore after. Sometimes I just don't feel like dealing with any of that hence I don't feel like having sex.
I don't really know what I'm looking for. I know I need to make some changes and start showing my FI that I want him. I know if the tables were turned I would feel horrible. I guess I just want some feedback or words of wisdom. Thanks for reading, it got kind of long.