This past Friday I had a follow-up appointment with my doctor regarding my failed IVF and a second opinion appointment opinion with another doctor. Both doctors told me that I need to significantly decrease my exercise (ideally not work out at all beyond walking) and gain some weight - they want me to raise my BMI a bit. Since we're starting another cycle right away I really need to work on this, but it is SO hard. I know I need to it, but mentally, I'm a mess. I don't know how to completely change my thinking like this, you know? I've spent the last, oh, five years, telling myself NOT to gain weight and conditioning myself to work out all the time, and now I need to let myself put on some pounds and lose the work outs. I want this IVF to work so badly, but I'm getting so stressed. I want to gain weight but I'm terrified to gain weight at the same time. I know I need to keep my eye on the prize and all that. I knew you ladies would understand though.