So, I'm a year after my H and I broke up and it was a clean break.....our divorce was completely legal on Jan 15. I have been living on my own in a new home since May. I feel like my life has moved on, but my heart is still just sad that this has "happened" in my life.
I know, intellectually, that I am better off without my ex and I actually don't yearn for him per se, but I yearn for company. I definitely am feeling lonely these days. I was dating someone for a few months, but that recently ended and I know that was the right choice, we just weren't a perfect match. Anyway, I guess the loneliness is catching up with me.
I am turning 30 at the end of the month and I think I am just sad that my life isn't where I thought it would be. I don't want to need to be with someone. I want to revel in my independence and I am a fairly busy person, always burning the candle at both ends, filling my days up with stuff to do. I feel like my life is full, but not necessarily conducive to meeting someone. AND, at the same time, I don't want my life to be about meeting someone--I want to be content and full without someone and I guess getting to that point has some growing pains to it.
Just felt like getting that out and maybe since some of you have been through divorce, you might understand because all of my friends IRL are married and definitely can't really get into my shoes. Yes, I see someone for therapy, but I was just having a low night tonight....