I haven't posted much in a long time but this I'm struggling with:
My grandparents' anniversary is on New Year's Day. Every year the whole family comes together for a dinner celebration at a nice restaurant. Last year was my grandparent's 65th wedding anniversary. My grandfather passed in February.
I'm 33 years old and I have no idea what people do on New Year's Day. We have always gotten dressed up (semi-formal) for dinner at 4pm at the same restaurant. I feel lost.
Then I feel guilty, b/c I feel like I'm not taking my grandmother's feelings into account. It's been a really hard year for her. They grew up together. His sister was her best friend. They worked together and started businesses together. They still held hands and went on walks together. They would get on an elevator and see how many kisses they could get in before the doors opened again. (I only found this out recently and still amazed about how profoundly they loved each other)
My aunt is taking my grandmother to visit my other aunt in Florida and making a week vacation out of it. Trying to make everything different so she won't have to be at home focusing on where she is supposed to be.
I am very close to my family and we are kinda walking around a little dazed.
I guess my real question is what do people do for New Year's day?