My mom and I are not what I'd call close. She's VERY difficult to get along with. I'm pretty sure she is bi-polar, although it's never been diagnosed because she doesn't think there's anything wrong with her. She has done her best to make me miserable throughout my childhood and into my teens. I finally feel like I've broken free of her clutches, although she can still call sometimes and put me in a bad mood. Anyway, I always dread Mothers' Day because I have to act like she's actually been a good mother and give her cards and flowers when in reality I know she's been terrible. I always dread it.
This year is even worse than usual because she's gotten on this kick where she thinks life is too short and she wants to get back into my life more. She wants to have DH and me over for dinner and play board games, but every time she's called to invite us has been a bad night for us. She's trying, but there are still a lot of hurt feelings over the past and I can't just move on and forget about them. I've told her this but we just get in arguments when discussing the past.
?My MIL is wonderful and she makes up for a lot of what I've gone through in the past. I wish I could just celebrate Mothers' Day with her, but that's not going to happen. I'll have to see my mom at some point or there will be hell to pay. I even went out and got cards already, one for MIL and one for my mom. I showed them to DH and he said we should white out the word "wonderful" when describing what kind of mother she's been.
I guess I just needed to vent. Anyone else have such negative emotions associated with Mothers' Day? ?