Ok so I've been married 4 1/2 months and I feel alone. I spend most of my time alone now and even when my husband is home I'm still alone because he is constantly in front of the computer editing pictures (part-time photographer). We spend less time together now than we did before we got married. He chats with girls on facebook that he is planning shoots with or has shot and ends up in conversations that are less than appropriate. Making sexual references about their body or telling them they are sexy or hot etc. He rarely says anything about me or complements me. We had a huge blow up 2 months ago where he was being very sexually explicit with a girl on facebook and I almost left then (probably should have).
Recently I found out that he has a few thousand dollars in unpaid medical bills, he didn't pay our electricity for 2 months and he's not paying his credit card bills. Basically I can never co-sign anything or be on anything financial related because of this. Meaning we can't buy a house together in the future because he is not responsible.
Literally this whole life I thought I could have with him has vanished. I can't own anything, I can't go back to school to get a better job because the little bit of extra cash I have from working two jobs I have to save in case our electricity gets turned off.
He's been trying, but very little to make things better and I just don't care anymore. I don't want him near me, I don't want him to touch me (he thinks sex is going to make it all better so he pushes for it every day), and I just don't know what to do. I feel hopeless and lost.