The story so far...
I was born from an affair, my biological father told my mother that he and his wife were separated and going through divorce procedures, by the time she learned that they were still together she had already fallen pregnant with me.
My half brothers and sisters don't know I exist, I'd like to make contact with them but I'm scared they'll recent me and blame me for what happened. I guess what's changed is recently I've learnt that I'm now an aunty and my niece is the spitting image of me. I feel that time is now running out, my father is in his 70's, not particularly healthy and hasn't contacted me in 20 years. (I'm now 24 years old)
I fully intend on attending his funeral when he eventually passes as I'm a human being and I deserve the right for closure just as much as anyone else but should I lie for his mistakes? Should I never tell my siblings that I exist? I'd like to approach them before he passes and give them the option to know me but I don't want to hurt the family, I know after he passes I wont be able to do it as I'll feel guilty that they won't be able to get an explanation from him. Even after everything he's done, I can't bring myself to have anymore casualties bought into the situation, I understand the reasons why he left me and I forgive him for that, but I don't think I can forgive him for lying to them and treating me like a dirty little secret.
What should I do? Please Help.