My Mom got sick with H1N1 and it quickly attacked her lungs and she ended up developing and passing away from complications from Acute Respritory Disstress Syndrome about 3 weeks ago. We spent many weeks with her in ICU in a medically induced coma, I didn't really get to talk with her before she went into the ER that day. But I did spend a lot of time with her before that, and helped her when she was sick, a day or two before it got much worse and my Dad took her in. She is my very best friend (aside from my husband), we used to do lunch at least once a week and I LOVED spending time with her. We always had so many laughs and just the best of times. I was just cleared to be able to start our family (I'm 31) after a couple complicated miscarries and dealing with panic disorder. And I find it hard to think of things like having kids without her here. I have great friends, my Dad is amazingly strong and faithful and it breaks my heart that he's going through this (my parents are just the best examples of soul mates and best friends that I have seen in my life. And I feel like I don't want to talk to him too much about it, because it will make him sadder. But maybe it would help him too?), my Sister and my husband who are both the best as well. But obviously I'm left dealing with what feels like such a void, such a heavy loss and it was all so sudden. She's normally so healthy.
Does anyone have experience with losing a loved one and things that have helped? We are very religious and do believe that we will all be together again in Heaven, but I still find myself having such a hard time and wondering if it will ever get any easier, or if I will always feel like breaking down crying and feeling so unbelievably heartbroken. It's probably just where I am in the grieving, but I guess I'm just looking for some encouragement. Thank you so much!