My husband and I have been married for just over 3 years, and we have been tremendously happy! Prior to getting married we had the chat about children, and were both in a place where we didn't really have a preference either way.
I'm going to be 35 next month, so my "clock" has started ticking, loudly, and I want to have a baby. He has been on the fence and anxious about it, but gave me the green light back in November. I came off birth control, stopped meds that were unsafe during pregnancy, etc.
The problem now is.....if he knows I'm anywhere near ovulation, he physically can't get the job done (mortifying as that is)...to the point that he asked me not to tell him where in my cycle I am. He sometimes makes comments about "this is why I think we should wait to have a baby"..(when I come home and mention I might need a root canal for $1000)...I've talked, and talked, and talked to him in an attempt for him to tell me how he really feels, as I really feel like he in no way wants a baby, but is saying yes for me. I get emotional when we talk about it, though I try not to. He continues to tell me we can have a baby.....when what I really want to hear is that he WANTS to have a baby.
So, my dilemma is this. Do I go on as we are, in my pursuit of pregnancy because he said yes several times, or do I go back on birth control because I know (98% certain) he doesn't want a baby? I'm expecting my period at any moment, and can easily get back on birth control once it starts....but I know if I ask him, he'll tell me not to.
He's said yes to a baby, but I worry down the road he'll resent me or a baby....and I don't know that I won't resent him down the road if we never have one. I also don't want either of us to regret not having one when we are way past being able to.
Anyone else have this going on?..........