DH and I had a big blowup two weeks ago...we spent over a week talking every night for 2-3 hours. The fight was mostly my fault, I have not been a good wife to him and he's been just putting up with it for a really long time. He finally snapped. I've been going to counseling for about 3 months to try to work through some stuff, become a better person/wife, etc. and it's helping but I'm not there yet.
I really wanted to work things out, DH said he didn't know if he had it in him to keep trying. After a LOT of talking and discussion, he agreed to give it some time and see if we could work things out. I'm making a lot of positive changes already and I think it is helping.
He has been avoiding physical contact with me since the blow up, he says he needs time and space to heal becuase I have hurt him so much in the past. I am trying to respect and honor that but it's difficult.
He left Saturday morning to go to Vegas for a work conference, before he left he did kiss and hug me and tell me he loved me so I felt uplifted by that. However, since he's been gone, he has not called once.He has texted these sort of polite texts but nothing any remotely close to what a husband would normally text to his wife while he is away. I tried calling him this morning and he didn't answer but texted a few hours later and basically said he's busy and what did I need. Very cold tone, in my opinion anyway.
I can't help but think that maybe he is cheating on me while he is out there. I don't want to think that because he's always been very trustworthy and I have never suspected him of this in the past but damn, it hurts to think about. I can't decide if I'm overanalyzing or if I am having some sort of gut feeling.
We have a 2 year old daughter and I am 25 weeks pregnant with our second so I am trying to fix this marriage for us as well as for our children. I truly love him but I don't know what to think right now.
Any thoughts or words of wisdom?