Yesterday my husband felt the need to tell me that he felt no sexual desire for me anymore. He feels like I have let myself go (which in all fairness, I have).
I was a horrible person when I was younger, but when I met my husband I changed for the better. Recently I had gotten sick and had to stay a week in the hospital, and I'm still struggling to get back to 100%. Between the medical issues and a few odd things that happened before that, I have felt the need to turn to God. I have never been a spiritual person until recently. I'm trying to work on my inside to become a great person instead of just an ok one.
Before yesterday I felt disgusting on the inside because of decisions I had made in my past. I feel like putting on makeup, and doing my hair, and working out is a waste of time, because it's not going to help who I am on the inside.
Now because of the comment that was made by him yesterday. I feel disgusting inside and out. Now I could start putting on makeup, and playing dress up but I have gained a lot of weight since we have been together. That was his biggest complaint. He said he doesn't know when it is going to stop, and honestly, neither do I.
He hurt me to the point last night that I almost divorced him. I mean that is being a bully right? You don't tell a girl on the playground that you don't like her because she is fat. He should like me for who I am on the inside right? I mean if he doesn't like who I am on the outside and the inside isn't enough for him not to care about the outside doesn't that really just make me a failure? I'm not really sure what to do. I don't feel like a divorce is the right thing to do because he was only telling me how he felt, but how can we ever have a sex life again? He doesn't want me because of my weight and I don't want him because I feel disgusting. If I lose the weight he is going to want me, but will I want him? I'm very turned off to his attitude about this.
Just a little over a month ago he was complaining I had no sex drive anymore, no it's back and better than ever and his is gone. I don't get it. Please help me.