.... the one time in YEARS I have desperately felt the need to talk to a friend, no ONE is answering their phones. Not my mom, sis, none of my 3 BFFs. /sigh
I really dropped the ball today. I made the decision a few weeks ago to seek treatment for my depression. I had an appt w/ a psychatrist today, over an hour away. C made arrangements to go into work late so I could leave baby S with him, since no one else we know was willing to take him for the evening. No biggie, right?
That is until I totally mess up, lose track of time in my appointment and let it run 2 HOURS over. To top it off, I didn't hear my phone ringing in my purse, so I missed like 10 calls from C who was freaking out because I was so late. (Combination of worry that I'd wrecked somewhere and anger at a lack of communication and him needing to get to work).
Needless to say, I feel like the worst mom and wife ever, and no one in my life is around. That does not help my depression at all....lol.
UPSIDE: (b/c there is almost always an upside) I really like my new psychiatrist, I think she is really going to make a huge difference in my treatment, and I am proud of myself for taking the time to do the hard and scary thing of taking care of myself so I can be a better wife and mommy....even if I did flub that part tonight.