Thank you ladies for the kind words and votes of confidence! I did end up going. One of the best things I ever did!
I actually left Friday and drove with the kids part way so we could stay in a cheap hotel and swim and spent the night there. My oldest loved it. The next morning we left early and drove the rest. Drove straight home on Sunday and got home late but it was so fun.
I do want to say, my parents adore my kids. They are so good to them and my oldest did cry in the car on Saturday morning to go home since she missed them. They gave them each 5 dollars and me 20 dollars for food.
Since my kids father has chosen not to be in their lives, my dad has been the prime male in their life. He is older and is a cancer survivor and has health problems so I do cherish my time and their time together. I just think I need to work on developing the adult relationship we have instead of the adult/child one we seem to have. So hopefully this will be a good beginning.
Thank you again!