I wasn't really sure where to post this, but it's most embarrassing to my career and I had to get it off my chest somewhere.
I am 5-20 minutes late everywhere I go. I will probably get flamed for it, but I swear that I have tried everything to fix it. I give myself extra time to get ready, try to trick myself by running my clocks five, ten, even twenty minutes ahead, and I've tried setting egg timer alarms only allotting a set amount of time for before I have to stop and head out the door. All these things I've tried may almost work for a couple of days (I'll get to work about 5 minutes late), but after that, it stops working. I haven't honestly been on time for work in over a year .
I've been a good employee of my company for over three years now and my supervisors have talked lightly to me about my lateness, but they haven't brought it up again in almost a year. They know I work late everyday (partially because of the demand of my job, mostly from guilt for running late everyday) and I usually work a half hour to an hour late. But I'll admit, it's totally embarrassing to walk into work late every day. I've run late to everything since I was a little kid and it runs in my family, too. I'm not a morning person, but this also happens any time of day. I'm very organized and I hit long-term deadlines ontime and even return library books ontime, but I am literally running out the door muttering or yelling, "Sh*tsh*tsh*t," and trying not to hyperventilate every day. I do have occasional anxiety issues, but I do not take medications for it (did for a time) and I really don't want to just so I can "handle" being late.
I eat well, work out, pay my bills in full and ontime, commit time to friends and family, take good care of the house and always get great reviews at work. I feel like any noticeable "flaws" I have I can focus on and eliminate soon after they come up, but I can't just seem to conquer this. I feel embarrassed by this, but I feel like if a friend or co-worker jokes about it, I want to point out that everyone has faults like smoking/alcoholism/laziness/bad hygiene. I can own up to it, but at the same time, I don't want to always be late and I really do want to change.
I should mention that I don't run late on truely important "deal or no deal' things (career-related appointments, flights, and places before they close), but I do run late to things that have softer deadlines (work everyday, doctor's appointments, hair cuts, parties, etc.). My job security is good and I'm not likely to get another big promotion anytime soon (already promoted once and I'm the youngest person at the company by almost 20 years), so I feel like it doesn't threaten my job, but it really is just embarassing and I should fix it.
Any advice? Anyone out there with similar issues? Thanks!