I just broke it off with boy 1 (the one who's in the city at the moment), and now I'm sitting here crying. It was not easy.
Not even taking into consideration what feelings I may have for boy 2, it wouldn't have worked with guy 1 anyway. He and I have very different religious beliefs. There are some things I feel very strongly about and he has opposite feelings. I know that he really liked me though, and it was so hard.
I'm sad because I hurt his feelings, and also because I did love hanging out with him and he was so good to me. There was no point in delaying the inevitable though.
His last words were that he'd really miss me, that didn't help the crying.
I think I would prefer always being on the receiving end of breakups.
Good news time. I've been talking a lot with the other boy and he comes home soon and I'm excited to see him.