So MIL found out.... not that I was actively trying to keep it from her.... about my "POSSIBLE" endometriosis. And spent the entire morning after christmas crying and whining because now "She will NEVER have grandchildren".
H told her that we were not even actively TTC and that she just needs to relax. AND that while he would like to have children one day, he feels like he doesn't NEED to have them to be happy. AND that was it.
Meanwhile.... I am feeling really defeated. We ended up leaving to go to my mom's house.... who I might add.... had endometriosis and had no problems getting pregnant.... and she said that all the women in our family had that and they all were able to have children. I'm concerned about it, but not really super concerned... at least not right now.
H did say he didn't want to talk about this with her and her behavior sure wasn't helping. She said she was sorry.... but couldn't help it.
I just don't even want to ever see her again. EVER.
I'm sorry this post is a little disjointed.... I'm just so annoyed and angry right now.
And this is just the "possible" endometriosis.....
I just really don't like her at all.... this combined with other things (life insurance policy on my deceased father reaction).... I just want nothing to do with her.
H and I are in marriage counseling.... which is more like helping us to comunicate better... which is working.... but how do I tell him I hate his mother? And I am sure if she didn't before she hates me now because I am "broken" incubator. Sorry.... I really hate that woman.
I might be gone for a bit... but I will check back later to see your comments/advice or whatever you want to post...
Thanks for listening to me vent.... and for getting through this disconnected post.