I feel like everything in life is going the wrong way. First of all, I haven't seen my FI in a year!!! (Long Story). I will probably see him in a month or two, but I am feeling weird about it. I mean I haven't seen him in a long time and I know I love him, it's just I feel like there is something missing because I can't physcially be next to him, it's rather annoying.
Another thing is my friends. I had a best friend in school, but in like tenth grade she moved to another state. Well today she comes into my work and she is with someone, and tells my heyyy, and mentions me as "the girl she went to school with." I mean yah i know that it was middle school but I felt kind of offended. I mean I tried keeping in touch, but I guess she didn't want that.
Another friend I have has really been getting on my nerves.
She has recently become friends with this one guy (honestly only really known him for like three months). It's like she is his babysitter. He has his own apt (that his dad pays for), all he does is parties, and it really doesn't seem like he cares about much. He needed a new apt and she was like omg omg i have to go find him a new one, he lost his books for school, she goes calling people to see if they have any. She even started cleaning his toilets (she doesn't even clean the toilets in her own house) by the way, this toilet is where people throw up and usually miss the target, and were the go to the bathroom and miss also because they are probably too drunk. For school, I have to remind her what needs to be turned in, if I don't do something she gets mad. She also recently threw her friend a surprise bday party and did not even invite me (we have been friends since like 5th grade) she kept talking about how fun the party was going to be, but no invite. I heard from an outside source when it offically was going to be, and called her and was like oh ******* is having a party, shes like yah who told you, and i told her and was like its not like i heard it from you. Shes like what is that supposed to mean?! Then still doesn't say anything!
I don't really feel like I have any true friends and really feel lifeless. I feel like I am losing everyone that is close to me, or I thought that those that matter don't really matter anymore. I kind of want to go talk to someone and maybe even go to pre-martial counseling (my FI and fight about little stuff but I feel like it will help us). I've just felt really sad and depressed lately