I swear he must have been reading my thread yesterday...even though I know it's highly unlikely since he doesn't know I go on here.
Anyway...I didn't feel the need for 'the talk' last night. We went to look at the house and I felt very involved in the decisions he was making about the situation. I felt involved before, but he was just so excited about us living there together that it made me feel 100% like it was mine too.
THEN...(I was completely shocked by this and actually started laughing because I thought he was joking) as soon as we got back to his place last night he ripped my clothes off and we had sex without a condom (I know TMI). That is a HUGE step for him. I know he did it for me. We did it again this morning (no condom). I can see that he is taking what I said last weekend seriously (when I walked out just before we were going to have sex because he refused to go without a condom). He's probably been thinking about it all week and realizes I'm serious about our situation and what I need to change in order to stay around.
I think I needed him to show this effort. I feel better about our situation today and my 'head over heels' feeling is starting to come back. I have 'excitement butterflies' in my stomach today and cannot wait to see him tonight. If men only knew what making an effort does to a woman's feelings toward them.
I know things are not 100% yet, but the fact that he is making an effort has made me feel good about our engagment. I'm going to suggest to him when I come back from my trip next week that we move the wedding date out. I want to make sure things continue in this positive direction before we make any plans that involve money!
Thanks for all of the suggestions yeterday. I really did think about what everyone said.