I just recieived this email, and I don't know what to think. Wow.
I would greatly appreciate it if you could pass this letter on to your sister, Andee.
Thank you very much,
This is, by far, the most important and difficult letter I have ever written in my simple life. It is with great care and affection that I convey this information to you.
Several years ago, when I was a young man, I joined the Navy. Pearl Harbor was my first command, and it was there that I fell in love with a young woman named Carey ******. In time, she became pregnant and gave birth to our child. I say this with the utmost certainty, I am your biological father. I can't be sure that you've ever heard of me and I know that the profound nature of such information should be departed in a more delicate and thoughtful manner, but I fear that this is the only way to ensure that you will actually receive it...for that, I am sorry.
I owe you many apologies, the most significant being, that I should have made you my life's greatest priority. Instead, I selfishly pined over your mother and considered my fate punishment for my indiscretions. I was simply unable to make an adversary out of the woman I so desperately loved. Alone, in the dwindling light of our affair, I began to see the painful flaw in my reasoning, but by then you had become inaccessible to me. The loss of you has eclipsed my entire existence. I feel it is not unlike the lose of a life, a life I am so constantly aware of. I speak of the life in which we would have shared, our life.
I've come to realize that so much of my life's pain has been self inflicted, and that there is no such thing as the complete absolution of my mistakes, but to repress the truth only serves to perpetuate those mistakes, and nothing more. I held you once, and have carried that moment with me ever since. There are those who would say that, that child no longer exists. These people would also readily attest to unconditional love within there own lives, yet insist on imposing conditions upon the love of others.
There is something else I must reveal to you, you have a brother. His name is Oliver and he is a beautiful one and a half years old. His birth has reasserted my belief in the indelible nature of our bond and I intend to tell him everything about you, how much I love you, so that he will most undoubtedly grow to love you as well. With the love and patience of an exceptional woman, I have at last, become a father and a husband. There resides within me a joy I had long forgotten, but even with all this, I am denied solace because I am nothing to you.
I cannot in all fairness, expect you to understand nor reciprocate my affection, but at least I'm certain you know of me now. The simple thought of you knowing I exist substantiates me some how and makes me feel more alive than you can imagine. I hope someday soon we can speak to each other. I dream of a day when you can meet my family and know your brother.
Andee, I have waited so long to know you and will continue to hold you in my heart and mind until I am no more.