I will try to cut to the chase since this is a long story...
After my wedding my mother and I began to fight worse than we have ever fought...a little background...she almost didn't come to my wedding, and refused to come to my graduation from college...we always fought about EVERYTHING.
Anyway, a few months after the wedding I recieved a very long letter asking me not to speak to her. I have respected her wishes...however, since I live in a small town when I see her I say "Hi" and she walks past me... She has even told my close Aunt that if her mother dies she will not attend the funeral because I will be there...WTF.
I have gotten over the fact that she does not want anything to do with me but I hate the holidays...and any other moments that are important. I feel lonely that I do not have a mother ( My father is estrange)...damn it sucks!!! Am I the only one w/out a family? Should I blame myself?