When I was 7, my mom divorced my father, after looking back on this, I would have to say she divorced me as well.
She had two children from a previous marriage, so I went with my father while my step brother and sister stayed with her.
She kept in contact with me for a year or so and after that the phone calls stopped coming and when I called her she was just full of empty promises. I didn't see her again till I was 21 and I had initiated the contact.
Coming back into the family was a little awkward, seeing friends and family I hadn't seen for well over 10 years was certainly a little strange for everyone but it was nice, for a little while.
Once the "honeymoon" wore off, everything changed. Maybe I'm making a big deal out of nothing, you tell me: After being in touch with the family for the past 20 years, I'm now in my 40's, it feels as though no one would miss me if I just left. If I talk to my Mom, I'm the one who always makes the effort and she is still full of empty promises, not just to me but also to my children, her grand children. She has often told me a few times how she is always in contact with John and Jane, fake names for my step siblings, and talks to them on nearly a daily basis. She has made comments that she visits her daughter in law, a 2 hour drive from her home which takes her within 300 yards of my home, but never stops to say hi or calls to say she'll be in the area.
This attitude of avoiding me isn't just with her, it pervades within her entire family. The few times I had been invited to a party, usually christmas, I'm told to arrive at a certain time. When I arrive with my wife and children, we find out the party has been going on for the past 6 hours, the food is gone, the presents have been given out and people are actually starting to leave. With my brother and sister, I notice on facebook that they take a multitude of pics of whenever they go out or have a party with family and friends and it's a huge deal for them. When they invited us out for dinner, not a single picture was taken and it almost seemed like they were just going through the motions and couldn't wait to get on with their lives.
I've talked to my Mom about how I feel, she sympathized with me and apologized. Nothing changed.
From what I can gather on social media, her relationship with her own two children is strong, and here I am, wondering what I did to deserve being ignored.
In the past 2 years, I've pretty much given up. I've stopped calling, I don't "keep in touch", I don't expect anything from them which is great cause I get nothing. But it still bothers me. What was so wrong with me that my Mom didn't want to take the time for me? What is so wrong that my family literally treats me like that step kid that no one wants. The way I look at it, Taking out the garbage was more important to her than picking up the phone and calling me just to say "hi".
My wife knows this still bothers me and I can't get any real resolution. I'm thinking that either I'm making too much of it or it is the way it is and I should just accept it.
Am I making a mountain out of a mole hill here?