My boyfriend and I have been together for about 1 year and a half. At the beginning of the relationship I had just recently gotten out of a marriage and he was "playing the field" per se. We both were seeing other people and doing our thing in the first couple months. After about 2 months we had talked about being exclusive and he had agreed, however I found out he still had a online dating website profile and was still texting some of the girls. When I found out he was very apologetic and did his best to redeem himself. He did delete it and it really hasn't been an issue. He is very loving and a wonderful man to me. However, recently we were setting up the kids IPADs we got for them and it synced with each of our gmail accounts. When he was gone I looked through his and found old emails from the first few beginning months of the relationship to other girls that were of a sexual nature. There was nothing recent or even from the last year in there other than typical generic emails. I brought it up to him and he apologized and said it was all way in the past and he has made a complete 180 since then and is so in love with me and just wants us to be a family. He said he was sorry he still had that in there and didn't realize it was still there. I don't have any belief that he is doing this now, and thats not my problem but I just keep thinking about him talking with them, sending pictures to them. I don't know how to get over it. I love him so much but it just overwhelms my thoughts and is pushing me away from him and I resent him almost for things in the past, even though he has pretty much been perfect since. I'm just wondering if someone has some advice or went through something similar.