Ok so me and my husband of 3 years have had our issues in the past. We were long distance for a good portion of time and during that time I found out that he was texting and messaging other girls. He would stay out and party and would forget to call me and let me know that he had made it home. This created some really deep trust issues for me that I am not sure that I am completely over. We separated for a while both saw other people but he ended up wanting to stay married so we had a very long discussion about the things that needed to change. I told him if I want to check his accounts (email,texts etc) I was going to for piece of mind and he was really going to have to make an effort to show me that this relationship was something that he wanted because he had been the one to tell me that we should get divorced because he just didn't love me the same way anymore. He moved back in with me and things started off better he was very attentive and sweet buying me flowers leaving me little notes and just being the ideal husband. I ended up getting pregnant (birth control failure). I still felt the need to check his phone so I did and found that on facebook he had messaged a girl from our hometown (we were not living there) that he didn't know. He told her that she probably didn't know him but he had seen her out jogging around town and that she may have seen him in his lifted jeep. The contents of the text felt flirty like he had seen her out jogging and she looked good and he wanted to get to know her better. I was furious that he would still be messaging females even though it was someone so far away and he couldn't do anything with her I felt like it was emotional cheating. Especially after we had so many issues in the past with this and he knew it was a huge deal for me. I confronted him and he said he didn't even think anything of it was just talking but if it made me that uncomfortable that he wouldn't continue to do so. I pretty much had to blindly trust that he wouldn't do it again and felt that since I was pregnant I should try and make it work. Things seemed to continue to go ok then one night I had asked him to rub lotion on my belly because it was really difficult for me and I didn't think it was that much to ask, he was in a really bad mood and in a very mean tone told me he didn't feel like it, to do it myself and he rolled over and went to sleep. At this point I felt completely neglected, I had asked him to do a very tiny thing for me and his reaction was to lash out at me for no reason and act like a child. I had no idea what I had done to make him upset or why he was acting this way and it didn't help that I was pregnant and now my hormones were making me cry (not something that I did ever). I chose to lay down and go to bed, got up the next morning and started cleaning not wanting to talk to him for the way he had treated me. He got up and acted as if nothing had happened at all and asked why I was upset with him, I asked him why he had been mean to me, he told me he was just in a bad mood had nothing to do with me. So I just went back to cleaning, he asked me if I was going to talk to him and I told him I really didn't want to talk to him at the moment because I was upset that he would just decide it was ok to be mean to me for no reason. He then yelled fine, got up and grabbed his keys. I asked what he was doing and he told me there was no point in staying around the house if I wasn't going to talk to him. He came back a few hours later and I began trying to talk to him, I told him it wasn't ok for him to treat me like he had the night before just because he was mad doesn't mean he gets to treat me like crap. He got very defensive and didn't want to talk anymore, told me he was over it and went to our room, I followed him telling him no we were going to talk about it figure out the problem like adults at which point he refused to talk to me. I told him if we couldn't talk like adults there was no point in continuing to be together like this and I left the room intent on going to stay at a friends house. He finally came out and told me not to leave and we sat down and talked, he agreed to go see a therapist to figure out why he gets so angry and moody all the time.
Things went well after that he started seeing a therapist however during this time I also ended up not really being able to have sex anymore because it was so painful. This seemed to put a huge strain on our relationship and instead of trying to control his attitude swings he just got into more and more bad moods. I would ask him what was wrong and his only answer was that he was irritated and just didn't want to talk at all. Now I can understand men needing their space and all but this was almost to the point where I questioned if he was bipolar because of the mood swings. We again got into a huge fight because I finally had, had enough and told him that we had talked about him treating me like this and he couldn't just treat me like crap because he was in a bad mood and felt like it. He told me that it was something that he couldn't change he was always going to be like this and that he didn't want to keep putting me through this so we discussed getting a divorce and for a few days had decided that's what we were going to do. We sat down a few days later however and I said maybe it was something that we could work on and if he was willing to try I would be willing to help and continue to help him try and change. Our other big issue over the months has been money, there have been months when I have been our only source of income and now that he is bringing in money again he treats it like it is his money instead of trying to contribute the majority of it to bills that I incurred during those months.
The baby is now 3 weeks old and this brings me to my next incident that I can't tell if I am over reacting to or not. He decided to go to a baseball tournament 7 hours away which was ok with me, I knew it was going to be tough with the new little one but he loves baseball. The first night he was there got a phone call at 11:30pm saying he was at the hotel but they were all going to go out to the bar for a while and that he would talk to me in the morning. Right then I was upset because he didn't even consult me, there was no "hey do you mind if I go out with the guys", or anything I know I am not his mother but I am supposed to be his partner and it was him just telling me what he was going to go do. I asked him to call me when they got in, his response was it's going to be late did I really want him to call that late. Which again annoyed me, my thought was I'm your wife I am home with our newborn I would like a phone call letting me know your actually back at the hotel and in for the night. However I told him in a snarky voice so he would know i was irritated to nevermind he didn't have to call me. He knew at that point he did so he said no it's alright I will call you when we get back we won't be out long anyway. Now my idea of not out long i few hours however I didn't get a phone call until 3am saying he had made it back. Now this on it's own, while irritating I could get over I was just annoyed and felt like my opinion didn't really matter. The next night however I got a phone call at 8pm but I couldn't really talk for to long because I was feeding the baby. He told me they were probably in for the night because some of the guys had bought a bunch of beer. I told him to call me back and let me know what they were going to be doing and to say goodnight. well 1:30am rolled around and I hadn't gotten a phone call so I finally just called his phone. There was no answer so now I was just livid, because the thoughts that come up were that it wasn't important for him to call and say goodnight to his wife and his new baby. Around 4am I finally got a call from him but couldn't answer because I was again feeding the baby so I texted him back saying feeding the baby did you need something. He said he had fallen asleep and was calling because he had missed my call. Told him i was going to go back to bed I'd talk to him later. Now the thing about this weekend that I think really set me off was that his actions reminded me of when we were long distance and he pretty much did whatever he wanted because I wasn't there to see face to face. The fact that he stayed up drinking for a few hours and passed out but couldn't bother to call me back and tell me that he decided to stay in for the night and say goodnight was what really got me. It made me feel very unimportant. When he got home he could tell I was upset so I started to tell him why that he had really hurt my feelings in acting the way that he did, he did say he was sorry but at the same time he didn't see the problem with what had happened. That created a problem for me because if he doesn't see the problem he will just continue to hurt me in the future without meaning to which is what I told him. He got defensive and said he had said he was sorry he couldn't do anything more, he was done talking and I could just let him know when I was over it. That was the end of the conversation really I just sat there not sure what to do or say, I slept on the couch with the baby in the bassinet next to me. This morning we didn't talk when he got up, he came over and gave me a kiss on the head ( not normal for us) and told me he loved me and left.
So my big thing now is do I stay or go? Do I stay and just hope that eventually things will get better and eventually we can communicate better and that he will try and make an effort not to do things that he knows upset me? Or do I just try and call it quits and see if we can remain friends for our sons sake?