So the counselor said try this. I am stuck in my grief about my divorce. I thought I was doing better, but I still feel all of the nasty words on the inside. Stupid ***, who could ever want a fat ugly whore like you, useless piece of ***. When I was almost desensitized by the words and he couldn't hit or push anymore he moved on to spitting. Yeah, that did me in, but the words... they are like an inside wound that will not heal.
So now here it is a year and almost 5 months later and I am lonely and completely distrustful of everyone. Still married, because he won/t respond to his lawyer or mine. Oh yeah I don't trust the lawyers either $$$$$$. I dislike computers because that is where my husband met all of the women who he was sending money and gifts to. By the way if you are a Hispanic woman facebook Terry Gordon, he will be more than happy to send you lots of money as long as you say that you believe that he is 36, and promise to send him naked pictures. And by the way he is 54. I did not have sex with a 3 year old.
I lived without a real identity for so long that i am struggling to find one. I feel like I should be something else. I should try to be younger or prettier, or more interesting, but I earned my wrinkles, and if you have to try to be interesting ....you won't be. A long time ago I was considered pretty, but it made me uncomfortable. I wanted someone to like who I was. Now after my husband has had plastic surgeries and hair transplants, i am even thinking the unthinkable, but i don't want to look like Joan Rivers or Kenny Rogers.
I could use some real advice, and an opinion from someone who has come out the other side of this. Where do you meet people?