I've been married for about two months and, honestly, these two months have sucked a lot. My husband and I had been dating nearly 8 years before we got married. We met in college and dealt with an LDR for a couple years, then we split up since there didn't seem to be an end in sight. We got back together and agreed to move in together. I moved to Pittsburgh, where he lived, even though I really didn't want to live here (it was partially why our LDR stayed long-distant; I didn't want to live in Pittsburgh and he was afraid to move away). I really don't fit in here. I'm used to a more transient culture; people from many different places with many different interests, and it's not like that here.
Nevertheless, I moved here and found that I dislike it here more than I thought. We have plans to relocate, we just wanted to wait for the wedding to be over before we put them into action. We spend nearly the past two years planning our wedding, and it was amazing. Now I just feel worse than before.
I don't know if it's a post-wedding blues thing or if it's because I've also stopped taking my birth control which has made me a little crazy. On top of that I have SAD and live in one of the rainiest/cloudiest places in the country. That and it being winter, make me very tired, but I'm sleeping the same amount of time.
Also, my Husband has become very busy with work. We used to carpool to work. Now he drives himself, and usually comes home on time, but is distracted with work emails and phone calls.
I've just be very emotionally drained. I'm crying nearly every other day. I'm having crazy dreams. I'm agitated by nearly everything my husband does. I find myself not replying when he tells me he loves me. I can't concentrate at my job. I've felt so lonely and don't know why. Nothing has changed from before the wedding till after. We were busy with things before, now we're just busy with different things.
Maybe it's because I expected things to change drastically after our wedding. I guess I thought that once we started to enact our plan to relocate things would just start working out and they aren't and it's frightening with the finality of marriage. That what if I'll just be this sad and lonely and angry forever.
Does anyone have any advice on how to deal with this? Is this what they call post-wedding blues or is it because I stopped taking birth control or am I totally nuts? Any advice would be great!