I have been married 31 years and have been with my husband for 33 years. He has told me he thinks I have had an affair which I have not. He went throw my computer & found an e mail I had sent a friend in it I had said that he makes me tingle when he touchs me to say Hi whenever I see him. I have never been with another man in the 33 years we have been together. That is more then I can say for him. He has had 2 affairs that I know of & I think maybe having another on. I am so confused right now. He has to know what I am doing all the time. I cant even go to the restroom without him wanting to know where I am going. I think I have had enough but dont want to hurt anyone but I am so tired of being hurt. I am never with my friend alone because I am very attracted to him. I dont want to break the vows I made to him, God & our parents but it is getting harder to do so. I have found things that leads me to beleave he is having another affair. I dont know what to do!!!!