Hi there. I was hoping that there would be other wives out there that felt the same way I do and could give me advise on if it will get better. My husband joined the Freemason last night after years of him promising me that wouldn't do it because he didn't want to hurt me and that he joked it was like a cult. So those words just cannot get out of my head, it was the first time I ever heard anything about this group so it kinda stuck. Well fast forward a few years and major life events, he joined. I cry all the time, can't sleep at night and get sick to my stomach thinking about it. I don't like that he is keeping secrets from me. He claims that the things are so silly, it's not as big of a deal as everyone makes it out to be. I am Catholic, and the church is against this group. I feel like he is going against the promises he made by us marrying in the church and baptizing our children. Btw, he was raised with no religion. I feel like that's why he is drawn to this.
I really try to be okay with it, I am for a little bit, but then go right back to being upset. I just can't get through this wall. The secrets and the stuff I read online about them being blindfolded with a rope hanging from my neck is sick!
Please someone help me. I know they do good, but I feel like the history behind it is something evil.