My husband and I got engaged on Christmas day, 2011. That left us nine months to plan our wedding for September. It wasn't a long timeline, but doable. My whole life for the better part of a year has been devoted to planning this wedding. If we weren't meeting with potential vendors, I was online researching or pinning ideas to my Pinterest board. You get the idea. All wedding. All the time.
We've been married about a month now and I am the happiest I've ever been - with my relationship. But now I'm feeling increasingly more unhappy with other aspects of my life that I was able to overlook these past months. I really think I have post-wedding depression! Obviously I know it's nothing like actual depression, but I feel bummed most of the time. It's been nice to actually be able to finish a book, or just watch a tv show if I want to. But now I'm broke, unhappy with the apartment we live in, and I am back to realizing how much I hate my job, especially.
With planning the wedding, the job search and apartment hunt got put on the back burner. Now that there's no wedding to plan, I have nothing else to feel excited about. I feel like I can't get excited about a new place because we don't have any money. I really want that fresh start in a house, but all we can afford is a crappy apartment complex. We don't have the money to purchase a house, and neither of us is ready to commit to which school district we're going to raise our kids in.
I hate my job, but it's been paying me the money I needed for this wedding. After have 13 days off for the honeymoon (we stayed local - again, no money), coming back to work was a major downer.
I know I need to be motivated to find a job that makes me happy, and find a home to start our family in, but all I feel is bummed about everything. And broke. I definitely feel broke. And directionless. I'm 24 years old and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up.
I know this is supposed to be the happiest time of my life. My husband has a baby on his mind, but I can't even THINK about that until I have a job and a home that I care about. But where do I even start?
Does anyone else have post-wedding blues??