And I'm already depressed and questioning myself. Please keep the I told you so's to yourself. I already hate myself and just want to curl in a ball a disappear. I'm trying to not think about it to much because I can't reverse it now and I did what I thought was best, not being able to financially support it (well I could but I'd be doing it on my own) , or it growing up in a different state then his or her dad.I just hope it gets better.. Does it get better? Or am I going to hate myself forever. I know you can't really answer, just wondering if anybody else went through this? This is also very fresh, just happened today..