I started my weight loss challenge today. I may or may not have stuffed my freaking face with everything I could and drink the whole weekend to buff my numbers up/get it out of my system. Not to mention I just started my period yesterday (hoooorrrraayyyyy!!! Thank you Baby Jesus!)
But now, I'm sad when I looked at the scale today. I'm back up to 169!!! I'm definitely feeling gosh awful about myself and I do not like the way that my pants are tighter, I started wearing dresses all the time again. I've noticed that before, I would strip down to my panties (how I sleep) right away and just hang out in our bedroom with DH. Now I'm waiting to right before bed to strip and hop in bed with the covers thrown on me. I feel like yes, I know it was your wedding and HM and you ate everything you wanted in Hawaii to live it up, but like sh!t are you kidding me?!? I am almost right back to where I was a year ago when DH proposed and I started losing weight (only 5 lbs less). Such an awful feeling to know that a whole year of dieting has been wasted because I ate out of control even after coming back. I've been back a month now and I managed to gain 4 more lbs. I really need to get my life together because for those who don't know, my mom's side of the family is on the bigger side and my mom has a huge issue with food. I'm completely terrified of living the life that she has lead and I have to get it under control now before it is too late. Plus, if my gma starts to poke fun at my weight again, I'm gonna have to freak out at her and I'm tired of fighting with the bitter lady.
DH has started his health kick today as well and we're doing it together! I went to get him pre work out energy stuff because he's so drained from working outside here that he won't go workout. Also his diet suffers from it because he rarely eats properly during the day and sometimes at night because it's so hot. I'm really hoping that between my two friends and DH that I can kick this weight in 2 months max. But... it would help me if I had more people to smack me straight on track! So please, ask me how my eating habits are, ask me how the scale is loving me that day, ask me how many drinks I've had in the past week, ask me how many times I've worked out/taken the dog out walking, ask me how many damn sweets I've had. If the answer is more than one sweet a day, a def virtual smack is in order...like picture message me your hand and I will put it as my background until I'm straight again, haha.
If anyone else is in my boat and needs my help to smack them straight, I am more than willing too Thanks ladies!!!