I don't even know where to start, but my son has recently been diagnosed as failure to thrive (FTT) which makes me feel like the worst mother ever. He has some developmental delays (he's 11 months old and not rolling or crawling) and we have Sooner Start come to our house to work with him.
His pedi has been worried about his weight since he was born and we have to go for monthly weight checks. Usually we just see the nurse, she weighs him and we go, but at his 10 month weight check the nurse said he had not gained enough and we had to come back at 11 months to see the dr. he weighed 16 lbs 12 oz which is 2 oz less then at 10 months. She said he is diagnosed at FTT and we had to do blood tests and we have to go see a GI. The blood tests all came back normal or close to normal so we don't know what is going on. They couldn't get us into the GI until June.
The pedi told me to stop nursing, but I just don't feel like that is the answer. I think she is missing something because it just seems like too many little things that could all add up to something bigger (he was born with 3 holes in the heart, one of the minor sutures in his skull closed prematurely, the developmental delays, he turned from head down to feet down at 35 weeks, he still spits up, he screams on his tummy, he acts like pooping is super painful even though they are soft, he doesn't mimic sounds and failed a hearing test on his right ear twice even though he passed it the second time)
I just don't know what to do and I feel helpless. I did schedule an appt with another pedi to get a second opinion, but I just don't know what to do. I worked so hard when I was pg to make sure I would have a healthy baby and that is all I wanted and I just feel like I did something wrong and hurt him. I don't know. He is a really happy baby and laughs and plays and seems really to love life, but I just feel like something is not right. My mommy instinct is telling me we are missing something. I guess I just need to get my feeling out with some level of anonymity.