Hey all. I'm in an incredibly difficult situation for me. My husband died of alcoholism about four months ago. My husband was very abusive during the last six or eight months of our marriage because of the alcohol. After he died, in November, his best friend and business partner really stepped up to help me keep our business going. He also would spend nights with me (on the couch) to make sure I was ok. He has been kinder and nicer than my husband ever was, he is wonderful with my kids (I have a son who is 22 and a daughter who is 19- my husband had no time for them at all, he wanted then just GONE from our lives which I didn't agree to, but I am ashamed to say that I allowed them to move out to stop the conflict).
Long story short, I'm falling in love with this guy. He's funny, he's smart, he's easy to get along with, he makes me feel good.
Unfortunately, over the weekend, we were drinking and I blurted out my feelings for him. If I could have scooped the words out of the air, I would have. Time doesn't work that way, so he heard every humiliating word out of my face. He was very gracious, he was very understanding, he was not in agreement with how I felt. He said that I was his best friend's wife.
However, I get signs and signals that he may feel the same as me. It's a horribly confusing situation. This guy is everything I wanted my husband to be. Is this just a reaction to my husband's death, or do I really feel this way? I feel a great deal of physical attraction between us, but I don't want to make a fool out of myself.
Please help me make sense of this. I don't want to lose his friendship, but I'm falling in love with him. I don't know how to handle this.