The past little while has been very hard on me... my husband and I have been having some problems plus I have been in severe pain (migraine treatment recently stopped working) - this has resulted in me having a hard time concentrating, particularly at work.
For the past month I've noticed that my supervisor has been getting very observant of me and often I come home enraged by the end of the workday from the snide comments and insulting behaviour. Yesterday I had a strange feeling like something was really up after something she had done and checked my file on the way out. There were 4 small pages of handwritten notes from her complaining about me, dated and signed. It documents a 2 week period starting 3 weeks ago.
There are a couple of things that I expected - I had forgotten to do a couple of tasks and she had firmly reminded me that it was important to remember them. But there was a lot of other stuff that was just weird.
One big issue she has is that I tilt my screens facing me (like a triangle)... they've been like that for 2-3 months because my doctor recommended making my workspace more ergonomic for my migraine pain. Not once has she mentioned them or asked about them. Apparently she hates them and thinks I am doing it to hide things, she admits to 2 occasions where she intentionally straightened them out and night and how she watched me purposefully alter them the next morning - I found that an extremely childish thing to be doing. She also claims that this is only a sudden change and that I have never done it before.
Then there is the issue of internet use. I will admit that I browse the occasional internet article from time to time during the workday to get a mini-break. We are entitled to 2 paid 15 minute breaks in the day, so I am not wasting time. Often if my supervisor is coming towards me I will minimize what I was reading - partially so that I can give her my attention and so that she isn't over my shoulder reading it. She has noticed that.... and in the note she mentions that she has been intentionally coming near me randomly to see how often I minimize windows. Lately I minimize anything (even work stuff) when she comes over because it is starting to annoy me that she is constantly trying to see my screen.
Except yesterday I made myself look very guilty for no reason. I was typing up a note on a report that I recently started doing and she seen me typing a lot. She announced that she was coming over to see what I was doing and jumped out of her chair (it was VERY aggressive) and I panicked and exited the window. She had seen me exit the window and I then had to stumble through files to try and find the one I had started on the report. I showed her a word document about it and she seemed very sceptical. I then felt to awful to continue the note and started doing other things, I assume she took that behaviour as proof that I was just wasting time on personal things despite having work to do.
She also goes on to speculate that I will waste entire days on nothing, that every single time she leaves the area she thinks that I stop all work and just waste time. She doesn't trust taking time off because she suspects I will only waste the time away because she isn't there to watch me. That is very untrue, I actually get so much more work done when she is away because I can concentrate more. She speculates that I am always lying about things when asked, I suspect this is because I often have to over explain for her to understand what I am trying to say (she is native French, I am English).
The worst part is that she explicitly explains that she is reviewing everything at my workspace when I leave - she checks any notes I have and goes through all of my files, calendar and emails. I now know that her friendly exterior is really a sham because she doesn't trust me at all.
I can't confront her when I go in today because I wasn't supposed to see that note! I want her to just sit down with me and talk about these things so that I am aware of the problems she is having... I don't want her secretly compiling a list about me in my file to only spring a nasty write up on me. I had always thought that people who were written up had been well aware of everything in the write up prior to it because their supervisor made sure to verbally warn them first.
I also don't know if she considers that a write up. She signed and dated it and is keeping it in my file - I thought that they weren't supposed to put stuff like that in my file unless I signed off on it as well.
This just completely changes everything at work for me. All I can really do it work against the note so then she has no more complaints... I have decided to start looking for a new position because I feel I can no longer trust her. I've gone from thinking that they loved me at work to now thinking that they all hate me and think me lazy and incompetent!